So,
After about 6-8 months of not existing I here to say why.
In may of last year I obtained my first job. It was a good job at the beginning but as time passed and more and more people quit I began to realize that the work was just too rough on me or any human for that matter.Said job is being a cart pusher at Meijer. I still work at said job but ive been looking for something that wont reduce my feet into mush. Now, what does this have to do with art you may ask? Well, ever since I got that job my confidence was slowly being drained away along with many other things. With that I began to draw less and less until I stopped for like a month or two. Depression hit and then things were going down hill. At around Christmas I was at the lowest point of my current life. Thankfully, I have good freinds who looked out for me at a time when I was really down. Its now the new year and I almost lost it one day at work. At that point, things began to get a little better. Even right now I figured out why I was soo sad and depressed. It was not just my job, it was problems I was(and still sort of am) creating myself. At this time, the only person how can help me is me. Im going to be one of the best artist/Game dev ever(cheesy as fuck I know) and work hard to live like everyday is my last. Now, im going to work my ass off for the future that I want to make for myself. Just do what makes ya happy and never give up.